(:

yes,
i will need time to forget,
yes,
i will need time to relax,
yes,
i will need time to breathe.
yes,
i will need the time to think.
and,

something to be said:

be careful what you wish for.

sometimes the past might haunt you down, like a predator after its prey.
like the lion and the lamb. and of course i'm not typing about the lion fell in love with the lamb.
yeap, not those kinds.
when people you used to be in very good terms with let u down.
you will start doubting people surrounding you,right?
well, that's what happens to me.
with my experience, i know not all people can be trusted. some people is just there to let you down.
why believe them? why trust them? when they will pour cold water over your shoulder instead.
but today i learn that those people are meant to be in you life to help you grow.
i have learn that not everybody is like that.
and some of them do have their genuine good intentions at heart.
i learn not to forsake those people anymore.
learn not to doubt them anymore.
i learn that they are reliable.
i learn that they know how to love me in return.
and thats all that matters.
it is just to have a little more faith in others.

no matter what you had go through in the past, let the past be the past,
and people you meet after will bring much more amazement.
that's what i have learned so far.
and i m happy that it is not too late to change my perception about people. (:
well, this is the real world. and not everybody is an angel. NOT EVEN ME IS ANGEL.
ME SOMETIMES MEAN TOO. buaahhahahah! (rotten english) :P

and today was pretty amaza-zinggg!
i am so pass the five hours talk and undang!
and also today, i had the longest 6 hours talk.
it was so so bad, i was halfway asleeeeeeeep through it.
i meant, my eyes are pweeeny enough, so by having them sleepy. do looks like i am so asleep.
and that lecture dude was blabbing non-stop about who knows what.
the only useful knowledge i learn from him is that the date of production of tyres is noted down on the tyre itself. AND YES, that only. other time, it was mostly crap.
like what he spent half an hour asking about what will we do if a cockroach climb up our legs when we were driving. well, after all. the answer is to kill it. HAHAHAHA! (not very funny)
finally after all the 6 hours were done, me and ming couldnt be happier.
so we started jumping up and down like crazy bunnies! oops, nope. we didnt do that. but i wished we did. (:
so i called up the uncle, whose father died today. all my deepest condolences to that uncle.
too bad i dun know how to say ''condolences' in chinese. and all i said was dui bu qi. which sounded so stupid. cause my CINA is rotten. hee.
and my uncle told us to wait at a taxi stand.
which is me and ming's 1st experience waiting at a taxi stand, thought we are nearing 18 yrs old.
yes. we are very protected indeed. wat u TINK? WE ARE GIRLS LA!. (:
we started to be very scared about ourselves. and we were terrified.
1st thing, we dunno where the uncle is.
2nd thing, we were stranded in an unknown taxi stand somewhere in GOMBAK.
3rd thing, behind us is sort of a gigantic bush, there might be snake inside. AHHHHH!
4th thing, an idiot indian dude just whistled at us.and he was driving those big lorries. hahah! JERK.
it will be a bonus if his lorry got crashed!
seriously, why is there people like these? disgusting.
cant they just ignore two innocent young girls. goodness,gracious.
and soon, we counted down each cars. and finally! uncle arrives. WE HAPPY.(:
we will be getting our L-license soon enough after CNY perhaps. so excited!

and i do get very tempted to buy an iphone.
it looks so pretty when ming plays her pumpkin game. ):
me want! no no, i must be contented with what i already have in life.
and be cherish with what God has provided for me. yes. (:
will be helping out by teaching the myanmar children this fri, and i hope i will do well as a teacher.
had already bot them cute little christian illustrated stickers! (:
wish me luck.
till next time.
love-vonne.

oops, dear. i still owe u six sens. hee. *big smile*
thats why i decided to bake you your favourite mocha coffee cake today.
and dearie just told me he was hungry, yet i din mention about the cake till he reads my post!
*bluek*
ciaoz!

sunshine

today i went for my regular blood test.
i use to be that girl that's is so afraid with the sight of teeny-pointy-needles!
when i see those, i will go *gaspsss* and try my best to wailed out like a baby so i will be excused from any injections or so, but not now anymore.
i have to go for regular blood check for health issues.
but now i see needles as FRIENDS. bet i sound so friggin cheesy.
haha! BUT BRING IT ON. i aint afraid of you anymore!
i am so proud! i have finally grown out of my fear!
and that! i ought to boast about eh? heehee!
and thank GOD my that everything is allright.
i'm still doing very fine here for my long break.everything's good. and i m HAPPY!

last weekend was awesome powsome.
FRIDAY- karaoke wif church mates. all good. had a real good time! (: watched 'great day' with the boyfriend, didnt expect a malaysian movie to be so good and meaningful. (:
SATURDAY- resume dance lessons after a month! i missed it! its so lovely to dance again. ROCK ALOHA was a success as well with their splashing waters! lol.
SUNDAY-watch DON QUIXOTE. it was so lovely. now i regretted not learning up ballet. what a huge loss eh? it is like the basic foundation of all dances. and yet i quit. what a nut head i was at that time. ):

the girl lead was so so talented. acctually the whole dance was wonder-VERY-ful. ((:

and i am so exhausted for now. there might be some errors for my this post. but do ignore it allright?
i still dont get the *family guy* cartoon,
why can the dog talk?
why can the dog (whatever its name is) have a human son named DYLAN?
IT IS A DOG. so much for an educational show. har har.
it makes no sense, and it is quite a horny dog as well. NOT NOT GOOD.

and yes, that's the dog and the wife.
???????????????????????????
well, i am speechless on that.

colours of the yesterday and d day before...

so, i have been disappear for quite a while.
been really busy lately. and i am happy to stay that way.all we want is to have HAPPINESS right?
on sunday, i went to edu fair in convention center.
talked to a number of counselors regarding my studies. and deciding which U to enter.
somehow or rather: I STILL CANT DECIDE.
i will tell u bloggie, when i know okay? is either monash foundation, nottingham foundation or alevels.
gah! really don't know. TOUGH ONE.
VERY WELL.. lets put that aside. sunday was awesome too! met up with sylvia the weirdo(i still love u) and suan(the very pweety hair). had a blast walking around and around bangsar, met up me and suan's ex.cool.tuition teacher a.k.a mr.tan! ((:
and for once, on that  very day! sylvia stayed over.(:
i am beginning to love tutti frutti. it is yogurt. and it has a self service shop! u can even put your own toppings on your very own yogurts! there's so many different flavors to choose from too! ahh! love it!

before i missed out.
i, me, muah HAD finally have the courage to watch paranomal activity.
it is NOT THAT SCARY also la. wanna know why? i hid behind ben's back most of the time. HEE
well, seriously, i can conclude is just a movie that tries to play with your mind. try to make you believe. ya..ya..so the demon came. hehe. but it still gave me goosebumps in the night. *shudder*

i dare you to watch it alone! up for it? o.O

also, working today was rather fun.
excluding the part where the photocopy machine had a paper jam crisis!
and all the other workers were glaring at me with their, "how long are we gonna wait" look.
can't they give the new bee some time to figure out? GEEZ. mean people. oops. i meant impatient people. (:
other than that,i had learn how to calculate bills and more bills. done more filling. it is so great that my parents office are so well organize. i should take up their tidiness as an example. not to say that i am an untidy person lar. i know i can be tidy, when i want too, when i have the mood to be tidy, i will be. no worries. (x

i am deprived of shopping.
and it can be very bad to one's health.
why so? it can cause severe depression. and anxiety as well.
the mind will goes like 'what if......the shirt is bought off?' and 'what if it is sold out?'
so many...WHAT IF-s??
hehe. but i had a new idea of saving myself from drowning in the sorrowful world without shopping.
so my new remedy! and a great hobby which doesnt involve spending money is by creating a blogshop!
stay in tune for it! (:

and yay for today! as 90210 is playing!
hollywood dramas that never ends.
the twisted,complicated plot is what keep the audience in tact!
love this drama! hahahah! well, bye for now!

someday, you will watch me dance like there's no tomorrow. i will shine for you! C:

on the contrary, being a kid was a good memory to remember. as a new year begins, the reminiscence of yesterdays do brings me back to life, to where i am now, i have somewhat found myself. (:

and so i say........

today was a pretty good day.

the last weekday of the week, yesh! it is friday!

(: though i am not schooling, i feel the urge of enthusiasm to like fridays. the end of waking up early, the time to make a nest to lay ur head for the next two days , the day to just relax and do nothing. (:

and THAT'S LIFE.

SO, all in all, i have been resting my butt off this whole week.

wanted to start revising but never had the urge to do so. blame it to my lack of self disipline and, reliant.

all i do is procrastinate to revise tomorrow. never a good idea.

anyways i have been a total potato coach recently, this is due to the time paid back when i totally abandoned my awesome, shiny, flat screen tv last year due to ass pee amm. HEE. (:

so now! i can watch all! ALL! and conquer all. oops i didnt mean that!

i watched FAME yesterday, quite inspiring. was just watching it because of the lead actor guy n lead actress girl! they looked so cute together! and of course there was the conflict part and all, but in the end it was a happy ending! and that's what made it great. i just love movies with happy endings dont you, though they are just so predictable, it makes a person happy! and remind them, that u could have a happy ending one day too. when the right time comes. (:

back to the movie, fame is starring ASHER BOOK. a young and not bad looking lad, i will say.

here is a picture that will prove me not wrong.

i told you so, he is a total *droooool*. okays, back to reality. anyway! my boyfriend is much hotter than he is. hehe, but of course i wont dare show u his picture. you might drop your jaw if i did. (:

and the main actress is.....kay. FULL name which i dunno. hmm. seems i dun pay much attention on her. oops. (:

 she is a total sweetheart too.

and in the movie. they were both so young. and so cute together! (:

hee,another movie i had caught up with last night is the MAJOR MOVIE STAR.*i think tht is the name of it*

it was acted by jessica simpson. the life of a superstar which had faced a massive downturn, and so she looses all her money, house, and her boyfriend turns out gay! hahahah! so funnay! its meant to be a comedy. and so she join the army. something she sign up for when she was drunk. *typical americans?* and there it all begins, with army's training. HARD CORE pumpings. climbing up ropes. and so she cope! a great movie to watch on a free day! (:

watch it! on a gloomy day, it is worth the laugh! heehee!! HO HO!
dont you ever feel as if malaysia climate is starting to change?
like it is getting colder and colder each day, it is pleasant for me. as i prefer to sleep in this kind of cool weather. but it just get sad and depressed u as the day is just dark all day round.
so, in my opinion, in somewhat ten years from now, malaysia will experience snow!
and by den!!! we will have a white CHRISTMAS! or so i hope! *cross fingers*
haahaa! c you soon!
cioaz! muaks!

look! who's the judge?

well, my first statement is. DONT JUDGE OTHERS.
and ask yourself, personally before judging others, ARE U THAT GREAT afterall?
WOULD you like to be judge to? for good or for bad judgements, is still seems wrong.
is not good to just simply judge somebody, humans are humans, and their judging will only (maybe 95%) based on negative judgements i will feel bad seeing one judge another with rude statements, why not get to know that person instead of saying some stuff behind their back?

-does it really matter if you are fair or dark?
well, i am a chinese n frankly a tan one. people normally call me dark skinned, i may look like a chinese but i am not fair so deal with it, GAH. haha, i dont mind being dark, and i seriously admire fair people too. but we are all just people with just a little difference in skin tone, what is there to judge about? but in the world today, fair people get all the credits. dont u agree?''oh, she is so fair lar, why cant i have that kind of skin?''=.='' but it is lucky for us that we are all born in the new millenium and so, as for today, the discrimination against dark or black skin people has pretty much decrease. clap clap! what an amazing thing. (: happie happie!

-does it really matter if you are thin or fat?
now. THIS is the number one issue around girls lately. i,myself, falls into the a little chubby category, but am i going to have a crazy hell diet to stay stick thin? well no, i want to be just healthy, not micro thin. chubbier people looks cute too!so, dont judge people just base on their sizes. thank God that you have a normal body instead.

-does it matter if you are rich or poor?
moving on, rich people conquers all. the poor are again the odd ones out. dont be judging people by their brands of shoes or handbags, well that disgust me. if you can afford it, other people might not. so even poor or rich should be treated with equal respect. thats my thought. (:

-does it matter where you study?
no! oh....so you are from taylors? so you are considered a crazy rich brat. did you ever think that maybe the colleges out there are not suitable for that one person, hence she had to go to taylors. and mind you, not all of them there are spoilt.

so, be your own judge, and not a judgemental one.
set your own rules, and not blabbed about other people that much.
you could really heal the world and make it a better place, you know?
well, minimise judgments to others will purify the society too? dont you think? HEHE!

so, STOP JUDGING ALREADY. thank you.
hope this post wont offend anybody.
it is still a bright bright day. (:
cheers.

Through it all. (:

first of all, a very happy new year to all.
and lets wait and see what might the year of 2011 brings.
it may be happiness, joy come along with some sorrowness, not being pessimistic. but the world does goes in a moodly circle i think.
love today! its the 2.1.11. (SORRY) tht i havent been updating, had been so busy and all.
plus who will be free enough to read blogs anyway? haha!
it had been a long way already for me:

         for the next *lets do the math* 364 days and so on, i have set on goals for myself,
         to be strong through it all, TO SERVE HIM and i m currently so happy serving in tambourine.(:
         yes, and i am so known as the ALL SMILE girl, so much for skipping jamming. HEHE!
         to used the time wisely, plus also to do some revision perhaps? before even starting college.
         to re-learn my rusty violin and be able to play some pleasant music,to rebrush up latin,
         to volunteer in teaching refugee and yes i do know where to help. u wanna join? (: is a good deed!
         to learn pilates if i do have the time. to visit HK in feb and MELBOURNE in may.
         YESH. i have a feeling this 6 months will pass in a blink of an eye. hehe. time flies. remember?

and with the college applications, yesh, i have to admit defeat! why is taylors so expensive??
for the namesake or maybe they are really good lar, but burning my parents wallet does feel abit mean!
and there i thought taylors will be it, well my mum told me that she wants me to go there. the hartamas branch,so yes, it is well facilitated and all, wif escalaters, vending machines, cool corridors and even a walk through to plaza damas! the college of my dreams, but then the fees are a bit tight lar! does it mean i have to cut down on shopping? well, i tink i have to. PPPFFFTTT. but i promise to study hard.to achieve my long awaiting dream. and own a well design glass-outer-shell glass. according to mr.bennie, he would like that too! so we will have to work double HARD. ughhh, sometimes i feel that the future is so uncertain lar. but then we will have to work hard, no shortcuts, no luck that will come running to you, it will just be YOU, yourself, your parents will want to help you initially, but it will be just YOU and your hardwork in the end. thats all i know lar.

so i wont go on blabbing about my grandmother's story, to sum up to this new year post: 2010 has been a year which i appreciate. with this year gone by, i can say I AM AN ADULT! yes, high school is so over, i MISS YOU MY BUDDIES. and yes SPM IS OVER! LOLOLOLLOLOLO! i had been through good times: sitting beside my bestie racheal in class, thank you racheal for giving me hope when i loss it all, haha, she tutored me everything i dunno, i love u buddy! and good times does include family too! the time they were there for me! plus my little cutie doggie. well, lets not mention about those sad times, as sad times are meant to be forgotten and those who wronged us are suppose to be forgiven. WE FORGIVE AND WE FORGET, soon the world is a nicer place to be around. somewhat how. HEE.through this year, i have also learn how to be a much wiser n more mature person, to live life to the fullest without thinking about it too much of course we musnt neglect God as well la. i have also learn that a friend may let us down at times, in my case, the unexpected had so happened. and well, at first i was hurt and flabbergasted, but as time went by, it is nothing after all. there are still people out there who will reach out to you. those who still love you. the world doesnt revolve only around mean people, the world cycles around so many different varieties of things. YA, SO BE GLAD. and not an emo snob. hee. (: last but not least that passing year of 2010 had taught me to be a better person. in my opinion lar. (; and that very year had also brought me closer to God in a way. and i am so ever glad tht HE is with me THROUGH IT ALL. thanks to everybody whom make the year of 2010 wonderful for me! and i hope that very year was wonderful for you too. may you also cherish those times like i do. (;

may you enjoy these fireworks too! aint they pretty!!! ta dah! x)

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN! MAY YOUR YEAR BE FILLED WITH MUCH BLESSINGS.


and so he said, 'i dunno what i am gonna do without you''
so, i whisper the exact words silently in return.
bonded.by.one.love. (: happy one year, one month, one day my lovie. (: