Resolutions, always easier said then done.
But to this very year, though January is already fleeing behind time,and I am a teeny bit late....here it is! The top 20 resolutions I will try to achieve:
1. Get into uni, I.M.U, be nice to me. (: with that I got to constantly revise and stop the addiction of face booking. :3
2. Be healthy and stay off icy cold food. (:
3. Read the bible if I have the time.
4. Sleep early.
5. Be more attentive in class.
6. Maybe own a new designer bag? (;
7. Learn to drive and get the license!
8. Learn yoga and belly dancing to keep my hour glass shape!
9. Be a good daughter and don't over spend own clothes alone. (:
10. Love Benjamin baby with all my heart. <3
11. Pray everyday regardless how tired, emotional, I am.
12. Go for a family vacation together with the brother and sister.
13. Improve my Mathis score. :3
14. Be desicive about a choice of twinning with the uni of otago, or locally?
15. Avoid too much meat in diet.
16. Stay off using foul language. (:
17. Walk my dog at least once a week.
18. Read to gain more knowledge.
19. Spend lesser time on fashion websites.
20. Be contented of what I already have. (:
Monday, January 30, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
when thing arent good enough for you.
i tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it?
you ramble too much.
period.
i will call it a day.
i find it pathetic for you to act in such a way. :(
you ramble too much.
period.
i will call it a day.
i find it pathetic for you to act in such a way. :(
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
that day
a little of me wish that I could turn back time to that day.
That day when I saw a young guy in the therapy home, that day when I saw him walking each step with so much effort, each step to him, consume as much energy as a normal person would have to carry a block of wood.
He was just my age, I assumed.
His condition was by far worse than mine.
And here I am complaining of my little problems out of the norm for what I have to face everyday.
my mother asked, ' are you having arthritis too?'
he said no, he was having a spinal tumor. A part of me tore to pieces, i wanted to tell him something, but i figured that I don't know this person and talking to a stranger was just way too out of my league. I figured that I will just let this pass, if he's still here the next time i went for my therapy, then i will consider talking to him, assuring him that everything will be all right, although i barely know him.
that was how selfish I was.
and he took that walk to the bathroom that day.
using what look like a supporting tool to bare his whole weight.
you could tell from his movement that he is in pain.
it is spinal tumor, so i expected it to hurt a lot, since it involves nerves and all complicated and twisted system in control of our body. each step lasted long, and there I was just ignoring the whole scenario when I can actually give him a word of comfort just to stay strong.
what went through my mind at that instance was, 'what if he dislike strangers like me to talk to him?' and what if 'it is a too sensitive issue to mention?' or 'what if it hurts him if I were to ask him?' all these questions went drifting in my head. So, there I sat watching him, with each step walking to the loo. I could tell you at that moment, I felt his pain, weird but true.
Soon, we left that place. My aim was gone. I did not even mention a word to him.
I sat in the car, thinking to myself, what a heartless person I am.
At times like this, all I can do is pray, to pray that he will be all right.
And so, i whispered a silent prayer to keep that guy strong and healthy as I sat quietly in the car on my way home.
and all I know if, if I was that guy, I will eventually need support from a friend.
Recently, i went to the therapy home again,
and he was not there anymore.
I want to wish him well.
The next time I meet someone in need, I promise not to repeat this same mistake again.
I will seize the opportunity to say something supportive.
and yes, we are struggling with Malaysian studies.
If it not for it, I can be running in and out of my dreams all day long. YAWN.
but with my girls, though the lectures are a tad bit dull, they seem to make things better. <3
and I am a lucky girl to have them by my side. ( the nia nia-s, revisha, mr.1.30pm,and the group leader)
I am suppose to write an essay now, but who knows, they haven't sorted out the work yet.
So here I am, writing a blog post for all of you. <3 hehs.
this is for one of the nia.
i know you will love it, others Don't jelly, I just happened to find this while surfing the net. :)
and I know she'll love it.
here you go, though I don't know how and where to get this for you,
I think a picture of it will do. :)
That day when I saw a young guy in the therapy home, that day when I saw him walking each step with so much effort, each step to him, consume as much energy as a normal person would have to carry a block of wood.
He was just my age, I assumed.
His condition was by far worse than mine.
And here I am complaining of my little problems out of the norm for what I have to face everyday.
my mother asked, ' are you having arthritis too?'
he said no, he was having a spinal tumor. A part of me tore to pieces, i wanted to tell him something, but i figured that I don't know this person and talking to a stranger was just way too out of my league. I figured that I will just let this pass, if he's still here the next time i went for my therapy, then i will consider talking to him, assuring him that everything will be all right, although i barely know him.
that was how selfish I was.
and he took that walk to the bathroom that day.
using what look like a supporting tool to bare his whole weight.
you could tell from his movement that he is in pain.
it is spinal tumor, so i expected it to hurt a lot, since it involves nerves and all complicated and twisted system in control of our body. each step lasted long, and there I was just ignoring the whole scenario when I can actually give him a word of comfort just to stay strong.
what went through my mind at that instance was, 'what if he dislike strangers like me to talk to him?' and what if 'it is a too sensitive issue to mention?' or 'what if it hurts him if I were to ask him?' all these questions went drifting in my head. So, there I sat watching him, with each step walking to the loo. I could tell you at that moment, I felt his pain, weird but true.
Soon, we left that place. My aim was gone. I did not even mention a word to him.
I sat in the car, thinking to myself, what a heartless person I am.
At times like this, all I can do is pray, to pray that he will be all right.
And so, i whispered a silent prayer to keep that guy strong and healthy as I sat quietly in the car on my way home.
and all I know if, if I was that guy, I will eventually need support from a friend.
Recently, i went to the therapy home again,
and he was not there anymore.
I want to wish him well.
The next time I meet someone in need, I promise not to repeat this same mistake again.
I will seize the opportunity to say something supportive.
everybody have to go through tough times which teach them to be stronger.
Hard times varies for each individuals.
Well, having somebody to talk to will just make the problem better.
so speak your heart out if you have the chance.
:)
and yes, we are struggling with Malaysian studies.
If it not for it, I can be running in and out of my dreams all day long. YAWN.
but with my girls, though the lectures are a tad bit dull, they seem to make things better. <3
and I am a lucky girl to have them by my side. ( the nia nia-s, revisha, mr.1.30pm,and the group leader)
I am suppose to write an essay now, but who knows, they haven't sorted out the work yet.
So here I am, writing a blog post for all of you. <3 hehs.
this is for one of the nia.
i know you will love it, others Don't jelly, I just happened to find this while surfing the net. :)
and I know she'll love it.
here you go, though I don't know how and where to get this for you,
I think a picture of it will do. :)
She love cats and shorts. This seems to be the perfect gift for her.
I would give you this if I can find one. :)
And for my baby, Don't you ever doubt that I am not thinking of you.
Cause you seem to be the only one ruling my mind. <3
I miss you.
And we need more pictures together. :D
many more to fill up many albums to let our many children to see in the near future. hehs.
I will sum it up here today.
till then,
vonne.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
mind blown
time really do flies, just had a flashback of what i had been through this whole time. finals are over babes! :) and a whole new routine of life had yet to begin. :) went to the movies with my pals and had the whole mood rolling out. :) it's nice to feel freedom within our reach once again. :) marvelous feeling. :) some point at this time last year, i ponder on college, i stressed up over SPM till I am not naturally myself anymore. you realize what stress can do to you, don't you? and i wonder how college will be like.
while after the finals and the first semester has came to an end, it certainly did widen up my perspective a fair bit. though it will be tad bit emotional, i meet people that i grew to love each day. day by day. each with their unique behavior. :) i couldn't thank God enough for giving me the wisdom to choose the right campus to go to with all sort of nice people surrounding me. <3
in a nutshell,
first semester of MUFY is awesome. :)
CHEERS TO THE FRIGGIN' WEEKEND.
here's a shoutout to my darling who is having SPM next week. :) love u bennie dear. you'll do well. :)
Friday, September 30, 2011
dancing dusk till dawn
i must say it was truly awesome. A SUCCESS that i got rid of my fear. <3 <3 i will do this again in the future. <3 s to all my friends, parents, siblings who had supported me out. ;D whee
yes thats all, special effects sponsored by blogger for the last pic.
and i am just too lazy to do anything.
and one more thing before i go,
HAPPY 22MONTHSARY TO MY LOVE. <2
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
up for the fight?
it had been a terrible mind turning, super dreadful day yesterday, i am just so over lucky to still be alive.
many things had come and go, yet you are the one that still hang on, i love you for that. :)
went to college yesterday, had a terrible massive cold attack, who knows from what. screw you dust or stupid viruses and bacteria, go screw someone else. GAH. STOPPPPIIIIDD. =) much better. ;) i thought i had a freaking fever. never in my life i looked as horrible as yesterday, hairs all over the place, hand stuck to the nose for every single millisecond. nose dripping like a miserable pipe. YES. i know. whining too much. good god, i rested a whole two hours and felt much better after that. :) and of course i freaked out totally as the day after, i had BIO & MATHS & ENGLISH TEST TO DO. so paranoid, cant even concentrate after the whole 'i-think-i-am-going-to-be-sick-for-the-entire-day-and-not-wake-up-in-the-morning' syndrome. ;) so yesh, i didnt know what to do besides heading to bed again. (= usual me. so smart and relax. :)
the worst thing was, stupid arthritis came back to hit my wrist just as the night begin to come. yes, i had a whole bunch of papers to do. YESH, IT WAS MY RIGHT DAMN WRIST. why o why. sometimes i ask why did i get it, stupid shit, can it even come in a better timing? then, i prayed. (= by grace, i got over today. ;) i finished everything with a handicapped wrist of mine, and how on earth am i gonna perform on thursday with this wrist of mine? I HAVE NO SINGLE CLUE. but one thing is for sure. i am not a quiter. I didnt want to join any talent quest at first, but for the sake of experience is a fun journey, is not the winnings or fame that i am after, is the joy that i am after. i know i cant dance like a professional dancer, yes, some of my moves sucks big time, but least i try. i choreograph. i am satisfied. i no longer want to be that person who cries as she regrets to do something. winning isnt my thing, of course it is a blessing to win, but it is also consider a blessing by getting through the auditions. <3 i praise GOD. DANCE is far been my life. my hope. IF IF AND IF. it werent for arthritis i wouldnt have to even quit dance classes. but i know i can manage this through faith. I KNOW my GOD will always satisfy me. ;D
2 good and bubbly friends of mine hadnt been going easy with their relationships processes. i know i can do nothing better but to help and listen, as the saying goes nothing is always easy, even to find the right one, it takes ages and ages, and even if you found THE ONE, it is still a long process to get to know one another, to know one another's flaws, to face each other. but it will all fall right back into pieces when he is there. your heart will pound like crazy cause mine does that when my love is with me, even though he doesnt call, you still know he is there. even though he mad you furious with fury, your inner heart still longs for him. YES. is not a miracle, but a chosen one is out there for all of us. just that maybe, you shouldnt rush into anything? let it come directly and smoothly. ;) LOVES. the future is not in our hands, and all we have left to do is nothing but to seek God. =) with grace, hopefully, mine will stay forever too. ;')
college is fun. much fun. sometimes way over fun that i got carried away, sometimes you will feel like you're stuck in a whole other dimensions with people having fun all time around. BUT SERIOUS SHIT, trials is on the way. and FINALS TOO. CHICKEN SHIT. whatever. i am gonna be a super nerd after the dancing thing. ;) and hope that i wont break my wrist in the process. darling ben will try to make it, to support me, if possible, so we shall see whether he made it. ;D
i will have friends and buddies who loves me (i believe) so winning doesnt mean a shit to me. ;)
NOT forgetting the highlight of the day was pure embarrassing. not mentioning it in my blog, but what a crazy experience it is, well, just say the guy was in a green tee and he was THE awesome looking one, scratch that, my ben looks ten times better then that. HAH.
i love you all. LALALALALA. ;)
AND OF COURSE TO MY PUMPKIN,
YOU WILL ALWAYS linger in my heart. <3
AND tania, ever wondered why you are named fish poop? ;) ;)
many things had come and go, yet you are the one that still hang on, i love you for that. :)
went to college yesterday, had a terrible massive cold attack, who knows from what. screw you dust or stupid viruses and bacteria, go screw someone else. GAH. STOPPPPIIIIDD. =) much better. ;) i thought i had a freaking fever. never in my life i looked as horrible as yesterday, hairs all over the place, hand stuck to the nose for every single millisecond. nose dripping like a miserable pipe. YES. i know. whining too much. good god, i rested a whole two hours and felt much better after that. :) and of course i freaked out totally as the day after, i had BIO & MATHS & ENGLISH TEST TO DO. so paranoid, cant even concentrate after the whole 'i-think-i-am-going-to-be-sick-for-the-entire-day-and-not-wake-up-in-the-morning' syndrome. ;) so yesh, i didnt know what to do besides heading to bed again. (= usual me. so smart and relax. :)
the worst thing was, stupid arthritis came back to hit my wrist just as the night begin to come. yes, i had a whole bunch of papers to do. YESH, IT WAS MY RIGHT DAMN WRIST. why o why. sometimes i ask why did i get it, stupid shit, can it even come in a better timing? then, i prayed. (= by grace, i got over today. ;) i finished everything with a handicapped wrist of mine, and how on earth am i gonna perform on thursday with this wrist of mine? I HAVE NO SINGLE CLUE. but one thing is for sure. i am not a quiter. I didnt want to join any talent quest at first, but for the sake of experience is a fun journey, is not the winnings or fame that i am after, is the joy that i am after. i know i cant dance like a professional dancer, yes, some of my moves sucks big time, but least i try. i choreograph. i am satisfied. i no longer want to be that person who cries as she regrets to do something. winning isnt my thing, of course it is a blessing to win, but it is also consider a blessing by getting through the auditions. <3 i praise GOD. DANCE is far been my life. my hope. IF IF AND IF. it werent for arthritis i wouldnt have to even quit dance classes. but i know i can manage this through faith. I KNOW my GOD will always satisfy me. ;D
2 good and bubbly friends of mine hadnt been going easy with their relationships processes. i know i can do nothing better but to help and listen, as the saying goes nothing is always easy, even to find the right one, it takes ages and ages, and even if you found THE ONE, it is still a long process to get to know one another, to know one another's flaws, to face each other. but it will all fall right back into pieces when he is there. your heart will pound like crazy cause mine does that when my love is with me, even though he doesnt call, you still know he is there. even though he mad you furious with fury, your inner heart still longs for him. YES. is not a miracle, but a chosen one is out there for all of us. just that maybe, you shouldnt rush into anything? let it come directly and smoothly. ;) LOVES. the future is not in our hands, and all we have left to do is nothing but to seek God. =) with grace, hopefully, mine will stay forever too. ;')
college is fun. much fun. sometimes way over fun that i got carried away, sometimes you will feel like you're stuck in a whole other dimensions with people having fun all time around. BUT SERIOUS SHIT, trials is on the way. and FINALS TOO. CHICKEN SHIT. whatever. i am gonna be a super nerd after the dancing thing. ;) and hope that i wont break my wrist in the process. darling ben will try to make it, to support me, if possible, so we shall see whether he made it. ;D
i will have friends and buddies who loves me (i believe) so winning doesnt mean a shit to me. ;)
NOT forgetting the highlight of the day was pure embarrassing. not mentioning it in my blog, but what a crazy experience it is, well, just say the guy was in a green tee and he was THE awesome looking one, scratch that, my ben looks ten times better then that. HAH.
i love you all. LALALALALA. ;)
AND OF COURSE TO MY PUMPKIN,
YOU WILL ALWAYS linger in my heart. <3
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
steady
life's steady now. ;D and i like it just the way it is. ;)
pure and nice. with much studies to catch up on though, but life's good. ;)
GOD has been good. through everything, gives him all glory.a very deep heartfelt. thank you. :')
blogger is being a ditch nit for not allowing me to upload nice pictures of myself, PFTT. instead only a single pig photo is here for display. YES. bias much??!! :)
pure and nice. with much studies to catch up on though, but life's good. ;)
GOD has been good. through everything, gives him all glory.a very deep heartfelt. thank you. :')
blogger is being a ditch nit for not allowing me to upload nice pictures of myself, PFTT. instead only a single pig photo is here for display. YES. bias much??!! :)
*oinkss* meet the 'pandi', cute not? ;) reminds me of someone i am close to. HEE.
okay, this post so doesn't ring a bell with it's title. STEADY and SMOOTH is where my life is headed right now. and with everything in placed, i am quite sure i know what i am doing, sometimes, i just need the sudden urge to keep me alive, how to motivate self? that's a question i will never know how to answer. well, just need to keep it in the KIV mode.
darling is having his trials now, hence the temptation to blog, a date to remind him of his trials week. :D ;D
he's having his MORAL paper tomorrow, and here i am joyfully blogging away, yes. :P
the advantage you have when you sits SPM before your darling does. SO PLEASURABLE. (Y)
and i haven't watch smurf yet. D; dreadful.
but till next time. I SMURF YOU! YOU! AND YOU!
tomorrow will be the best day to date yet!
all classes shortens to on 0.5 hours. YIPEDOOODOOO!!
and there's carnivals to look upon.
will check them out soon enough.
till next time,
love vonne.
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